easier said than done

       Sometimes we wait soo long to put ourselves out there. I think it's just the doubt that builds up inside, and soon enough there's not enough room for hope. Or maybe we can only think back on all the negative times that we attempted to do something and failed. What makes it even harder is when you finally rid yourself of all that doubt and fear and go for what you want, then get rejected. Thus, placing yourself at square one once more; trying to scrounge up little pieces of courage for the next time... I think if i could have one wish in life, it would be being able to get the BIG picture. I want to see why things happen to me and what their significance is. Or if bad things are really that bad. I'm well aware of the fact that Heavenly Father wouldn't give us more burdens than we can handle, but it's just seems so hard to comprehend. In reality every problem we have is so miniscule in the big scheme of things, but why can't I see that now? and accept what I'm saying? I guess the old adage " easier said than done" will never die.